When feelings go blue— “Say goodbye to emotional hype and adrenaline rush”

The most silent time of a Christian life might be the time when we think that God finally decided to shut his mouth and hide His presence.

Most Christians if not all might probably been into this “silent stage”. These are the times when you are reading your bible, praying and attending church but it seems like everything just plainly takes place. Well it is different from praying, reading the bible and attending church out of OBLIGATION. You are sincerely doing these things to communicate and intimately connect with God because you love Him, but sadly it felt like God’s presence is absent.

That’s the keyword— FEEL. When feelings take over, we suddenly get clouded with confusions and doubts. Sometimes we thought that worship is some form of emotional hype or an adrenaline rush. We feel like when we are reading the bible and God is not speaking to us, God’s presence must be absent or maybe God is not pleased with our life recently. These are the lies that keep obscuring the unfathomable nature of God.

I myself have similar battles. One night, in my pursuit of hearing and feeling God’s presence again; I have decided to attend worship night in one of the nearest church. Well, I almost always attend there every week however, that time I was quite guilty to admit that my primary purpose was to seek God by attending the said worship gathering. One Pastor suddenly shared this passage:

New International Version (NIV)
Psalm 139

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
1 You have searched me, LORD,
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, LORD, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.

Im pretty sure that it is not the first time I have heard or have read these verses but this passage really struck me to the bone!
What was I thinking, when I thought that God’s presence can be absent in my life? Havent he assured me in His word that He will never leave me nor forsake me (Joshua 1:5)? This passage reaffirmed me how God sees and values me every step of the way. Our relationship will never be affected by my fluctuating feelings and commitments nor with the dark sins I have committed in the past and will be committing in the future.
“And it is my desire to lavish my love on you, simply because you are my child and I am your father” ~1 John 3:1

How overwhelming to fathom God’s love for us!

Made me think how busy GOD is to follow me through life, even if I tend to forget Him sometimes.
Made me think how wounded God’s heart is every time I break his heart.
Made me think how big God’s heart is to contain his love for a sinner like me.
God’s deeds are unfathomable,so every time I can’t understand His reason, I will decide to TRUST His Heart.


17 thoughts on “When feelings go blue— “Say goodbye to emotional hype and adrenaline rush”

  1. Dhenn says:

    overwhelmed… haha.. by the way , here’s my email your asking for dhenn.espiritu@gmail.com 🙂

  2. ..yep, I listened. 😀 Reminds me of a good old book I read w/c says “God’s promises have nothing to do with our feelings.” and “Faith is opposite of feeling. Faith is the evidence of things not felt (Heb 11:1).”. Thanks for the re-realization 🙂

    • Hi frank! I think I know you but can’t remember if I had the chance to talk to you. haha anyway thanks for sharing too. As you have said “God’s promises have nothing to do with our feelings”, yet it takes total reliance and trust to claim that God’s promises are true and will be unveiled in His perfect time. :’) (Ecclesiastes 1)

  3. I think It was back in 2009 I had a chance to meet you through Coney Guevarra (my sis in UPCES) during our GK activity, and through some friends in Victory at the same year.. Yes and eventually you’ll know it’s really a walk of faith, one step at a time.

    • Haru says:

      Ah tama tama. Naaalala ko na 🙂 Are you still attending victory?
      Tama Walk of faith talaga—though sometimes it is bittersweet. :’)

      • ..a question asked by my cell leader last week during our meet up after quite a long time and I say a tough one ;p. But before that, I plan to attend again. I believe things I learned in the cell meetings during undergrad are now clearer to me than before, something I can consider as my breakthrough this year. 🙂

  4. Common frank! 🙂 The best is yet to come! Tuloy tuloy lang!

  5. Cool! Si kuya benj pala 🙂 Ayos. Si Kuya Jet nakaclose ko nung college, ikamusta mo ko. hindi na kami close ngaun. haha
    Do you have a blog? hope to read your spiritual thoughts and breakthroughs too 🙂 God bless!

    • Si Jet actually ung nag 1 to 1 sakin nung undergrad, buti na lang hindi ko naexhaust ung patience nya that time.haha ;P Pano ba magblog?wahaha ;D Nope, hindi pa ko nakakapagtry magblog like this one. But I enjoy reading your blog 🙂

      • Wow smallworld indeed haha. Si kuya Jet napakahaba talaga ng patience nun.haha Nagvictory weekend ka na ba? Paano magblog? hmm sign up ka dito sa wordpress or try mo rin yung http://www.wix.com. Actually nextmonth resigned na ko sa work, aayusin ko rin itong blog ko haha ang sabog kasi saka ang daming grammatical errors haha. I can help you start your blog. Ok ka naman ah, You write as how you speak. Bite size tapos Ok ang mga thoughts mo. And if you are a reader sayang iblog mo ung mga nababasa mo. haha (na gusto ko rin gawin soon.)

  6. Yes, hindi ko lang matandaan ung exact dates nung Victory Weekend pro I think 1st sem ata un.. May naging kakilala rin ako sa IT/Music ministry that time, sila Hyde, Eeman, Yvett, Arwin etc. That time ko lang din nalaman na active si Rahj (kung kilala mo rin xa) sa technicals, brod ko pla sya sa UPCES, batchmate ko rin.hehe Kung siguro may blog ako, panay links lang un sa mga nababasa ko online lalo na sa science & technology,prang ‘wall’ ko sa FB.haha ;D Pra kasing I enjoy more on sharing what I read rather than expressing my opinions/views.. Pro sa tingin ko, prang organized na nman ung articles mo dito.. pro we don’t know, baka dumami rin ung magshare ng thoughts nila sa articles mo w/c might need website maintenance like what you plan.

    • hahaha nakakatuwa naman actually yung mga binabanggit mong tao, pag hindi ko kaclose dati. close ko tlaga. si Coney, si Jet, Si Arwin, si Raj! haha nice! Ah I see nacheck ko nga ang facebook mo puro links nga haha. Ok lang yun 🙂 we have our own preferences. Pero yun nga I’ll still encourage you to have a blog. hahaha I think you can be a good blogger. hahahaha

  7. ..karamihan pla sa kanila ay ka-college ko.hehe I don’t have the guts and skills for blogging at this stage, pro siguro for the mean time, read and comment na lang muna ako dito sa blog mo to gain insights.haha 🙂 Keep up to good work!

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